If I Could

If I could bare my brokenness and bruises from the past

Or share with you the baggage that my heart has since amassed

If I could tell you little things that worry me each day

Or spill to you uncensored words of what I long to say

If I could bare my shadowed side that only I have known

Or share with you the memories that make me feel alone

If I could tell you all the hurtful things that I have done

Or whisper to you deep regrets that I have told to none

If I could bare my fullest self, the good the bad, the fear

Or share with you my wildest dreams I long to persevere

If I could tell you all the times I've fallen on my face

Or reveal the insecurities I wish I could erase

I would bare my truth to you, but fear you'd run away

Or tell me that I wasn't good enough for you to stay

For I am far from perfect, rather opposite you see

And I'm not sure a heart can love the person that is me

I can't ask you to accept me with the sinfulness I wear

Or hope that you will help me with the burden that I bear

I can't ask you please to carry me when strength is not enough

Or hope that you'll believe in me when doing so is tough

I can't ask you to be with me, when I know I'll hurt you too

And let you down at times with the foolish things I do

But I hope you always know that I'm not going anywhere

For I love you as I can and hope that you're aware

My love runs deep as human heart can muster up alone

And though I am imperfect now I pray my deeds have shown

For love is all I have to offer, nothing else is right

And though I don't deserve it now, I hope one day I might

-C. O'Connell-